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godwhisperer) wrote2013-11-09 09:48 pm
godwhisperer) wrote2013-11-09 09:48 pm
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When: Friday, after the trial
Where: Sonia's room
Who: Gundam and Sonia
Why: Serious discussions
[Gundam is truly exhausted, more than he's felt in years. Making the decision he made was difficult, and then it all fell apart on him, turned out to be wrong. He's no longer angry at anyone else, not really, but he feels foolish and confused. While his anger kept him going through the end of the trial, once Kaoru was revealed, it has all burnt out now and he just wants to hide in his room.
But Sonia did want to talk to him, and he feels obligated to allow her to do so. After all, while he's not entirely pleased with what she did, she did what she did to save him and she was successful. He owes her that much.
So once he leaves the drawing room, he will go to her room and wait for whenever she returns.]
Where: Sonia's room
Who: Gundam and Sonia
Why: Serious discussions
[Gundam is truly exhausted, more than he's felt in years. Making the decision he made was difficult, and then it all fell apart on him, turned out to be wrong. He's no longer angry at anyone else, not really, but he feels foolish and confused. While his anger kept him going through the end of the trial, once Kaoru was revealed, it has all burnt out now and he just wants to hide in his room.
But Sonia did want to talk to him, and he feels obligated to allow her to do so. After all, while he's not entirely pleased with what she did, she did what she did to save him and she was successful. He owes her that much.
So once he leaves the drawing room, he will go to her room and wait for whenever she returns.]
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...I can tell you that it is not me. And... I am going to do my best to undermine their actions. [ She seems to consider something for a moment, and in that second that fearful look comes back to her, the one she wore so often during the trial. ]
That is all. I just wanted to let you know.
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[That's a little worrisome, but there's not any way he can interfere.]
I am sure you will, but your assurance isn't necessary...I would not be content to merely rely on you.
1/2
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Is everything all right, then? For... us?
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Of course, you merely interfered due to your knowledge of Kaoru Nagumo's misdeeds. Had I myself known...
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...It would not have been natural.
[ She looks down, feeling guilty, somehow. ]
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[He's not really sure what's upsetting her, so he just has a vague feeling he's done something wrong.]
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[ She takes a step forward, almost hesitantly, then puts her arms around him, hiding her face in his scarf; she is shaking slightly. ]
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Ah...
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[ Her voice is high, and small, and it's got a strange edge of fear in it, of despair and permeating loneliness. ]
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[He did feel bad for her, though it's hard for him to admit that, it feels a little vulnerable since it opens him to rejection.]
But in the end, there was no danger. They...none of them were willing to consider my bluff.
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[ And that's the thing: it would have made sense. It would have fulfilled his wish, and it would have saved May, and it would have definitely happened if nobody had caught onto the cup. ]
...
I don't want to talk about it any more. [ It's too depressing to reiterate in her head over and over. ]
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[He's sort of caught on that. It bothers him a lot that no one believed him. But he at least knows better than to harp on it now.]
What's done is done.
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Will you stay with me here for just a little bit?
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Yes. I can...I can do that.
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It would be nice if we could sleep together.
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There is no reason why not. I defy them to tell me where I may and may not retire.
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I suppose if we manage to rouse ourselves before midnight...
[ She reaches up and pulls the ribbon out of her hair to free it, then kicks off her shoes in a profoundly unladylike manner. ]
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There's no risk I'll fall asleep if I don't want to.
[Though he is very exhausted, it's more of an emotional exhaustion than a physical one.]
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Her hand catches his- the one not covered in bandages- and she holds it against her cheek. ]
Can I tell you something?
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Speak your mind.
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[ Her gaze seems somewhere distant, before it clears; she locks her fingers with his. ]
But you have given me what I did not have before. And so... thank you... from the bottom of my heart.
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[He goes quiet as she speaks, contemplative. Because she has to know his situation is no different. But he didn't really imagine that all the time he was hoping to have someone in his life, he could be that person for someone else.]
I...I have been alone a long time as well. You see, I swore off mankind and became evil, rejecting all of my ties with humanity. [It turns out when he says he is evil, that's literally all he means.] But even though it is difficult and I'm not very practiced at this, I am glad to no longer be evil.
I...you did refuse to allow that, and I am happy for that. So it is not a matter which requires thanks.
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...That is right. I cannot allow you to be alone any more.
It shall be a... a v...vow between you and I.
[ It's strange then; she looks almost a little sad. It's bittersweet. It takes her a moment to realize her eyes are stinging. Not wanting to explain why and wanting to forget the reason they are misting over, she leans forward and kisses him. ]
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But it is a little painful, to hear her make that vow she will be unable to keep. Instead of responding, he kisses her back.]
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But right now, there is no plan to conceive or murder to commit, and she wants the moment to last. Even when she pulls back she doesn't pull away entirely; after breaking off the kiss she rests her head against his chest, just listening to his heartbeat, and trying not to think about the oncoming week. ]
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